"Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay"Tree
The reason I'm called Tree is because I'm good at painting trees. Overtime, I start to use a tree on the right hand corner as a trademark for all my watercolors painting. I have dated 5 gals when I was in Pre-U. There's one gal who I love a lot but never dared to woo her. She doesn't have a pretty face, doesn't have a good figure, and doesn't have outstanding charm. She is just a very ordinary girl.
I like her. I really like her. I like her innocence, like her frankness, like her cuteness, like her intelligence and like her fragility. The reason for not going after her is because I felt that someone so ordinary like her is not a good match for me. I'm also afraid that after we are together, all the good feelings will vanish. I'm also afraid that gossips will hurt her. I felt that if she's not my gal, she will be mine ultimately and I don't have to give up everything just for her. With the last reason in mind, I made her accompany me for 3 years. She watched me chase after other girls. And I have made her heart cry for 3 years.
She wants to be a good actress and I'm a very demanding director. When I kissed my 2nd girlfriend, she bumped into us. She was embarrassed but smile and said, "Go on!" before running off. The next day, her eyes were swollen like a walnut. I didn't want to think about what had caused her to cry but laugh at her the whole day. When everybody went back home, she was alone crying in the classroom. She had not known that I had returned from soccer training to get something. I watch her cry for an hour or so.
My 4th girlfriend didn't like her. There was once when both of them quarreled. I know that, based on her character, she's not the type that will start off the quarrel. But I still sided with my girlfriend. I shouted at her and her eyes were filled with shock. I didn't care about her feelings and walked off with my girlfriend. The next day, she still laugh; joke with me like nothing has ever happened. I know that she's very hurt but she didn't know that my heartache is just as bad as hers.
When I broke up with my 5th girlfriend, I asked her out. During lunch, I told her that I had something to tell her. Coincidentally, she had something tell me too. I told her about my break-up and she told me about her getting together. I knew who the guy was. He had been going after her for quite a while. He's a very cute guy - full of energy, lively and interesting. His pursuit for her has been the talk of the school.
I can't tell her of my heartache but could only smile and congratulate her. When I reach home, my heart ached so strong that I can't stand it. It's like a heavy weighted stone on my chest. I couldn't breath. I wanted to shout but can't. Tears rolled down and I broke down and cry. How many times have I also seen her cry for the man who doesn't acknowledge her presence?
During graduation, I read a message in my handphone. It was send 10 Days ago when I broke down and cry. I haven't read it since then. It says "Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay"
Leaf
During Pre-U days, I like to collect leaves. Why? Because I felt that for a leaf to leave the tree that it has been relying on for so long takes a lot of courage.During my 3 years in Pre-U, I was on very close terms with a guy. Not BGR kind but as buddy kind. But when he had his 1st girlfriend, I learnt a feeling I never should have learnt - Jealousy. The sourness in the heart can't be described by using a lemon. It's like 100 rotten sour lemons. It's sourness to the extreme limit. They were only together for 2 months. When they broke up, I hide my strong sense of happiness. But after a month, he got together with another gal.I like him and I know he like me too. But why won't he pursue me? Since he loves me, why doesn't he want to make the first move? Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my heart would ache. Time after time, my heart was hurt. I begin to suspect that this is a one sided affair. If he doesn't like me, why does he treat me so well? It's beyond what you will normally do for a friend. Liking a person is very heart wrenching. I can know his likes and his habits. But I can never figure out his feelings towards me. You can't expect me a gal to ask him right?
Despite that, I still want to be by his side - to care for him, to accompany him,and to love him. I was really hoping that one fine day, he will love me back. It's like waiting for his phone call every night, wanting him to send me phone messages. I know that no matter how busy he is; he will make time for me. Because of this, I waited for him. The 3 years were the hardest period of time to go through and I really want to give up. Sometimes, I wonder if I should continue waiting. The pain, the hurt, and the dilemma accompanied me for 3 years.
Towards the end of my 3rd year, a 2nd year junior begins to go after me. He pursued me relentlessly. From outright rejection to a point in time when I felt that I'm willing to let him have a small footing in my heart. He's like a warm and gentle wind, trying to blow a leaf away from the tree. In the end, I realized that I gave this wind a small footing in my heart. I knew that this wind would bring this badly battered leave far away and to a better land. Finally I left tree, but the tree only smile and didn't ask me to stay.
In my last message to him, I typed "Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay"
Wind
I like a girl called Leaf. She's so dependent on the tree that I have to be a gust wind, a wind that will blow her away. When I first met her, it was 1 month after I transferred into the new school. I saw a petite person looking at my seniors and me playing soccer. During ECA time, she will always be sitting there, be it alone or with her friends looking at him. When he talks with other girls, there's jealousy in her eyes. When he looked at her, there's a smile in her eyes. Looking at her became my habit. Just like the way she likes to look at him.
One day, she didn't appear. I felt something was amiss. I can't explain the feeling except it's a kind of uneasiness. The senior was not there as well. I went to their classroom, hid outside and saw my senior scolding her. Tears were in her eyes while he left. The next day, I saw her at her usual place, looking at him. I walked over and smiled to her. Wrote a note and gave it to her. She was surprised. She looked at me, smiled and accepted the note. The next day, she appeared, passed me a note and left.
"Leaf's heart is too heavy and Wind couldn't blow her away."
"It's not that Leaf's heart is too heavy. It's because Leaf never want to leave Tree."
I replied her note with this statement and slowly she started to talk to me, accept my presents and phone calls. I know that the person she loves is not I. But I have this perseverance that one day I will make her like me. Within 4 months, I have declared my love for her no less than 20 times. Every time, she will divert away from the topic. But I never gave up. If I decided that I want her to be mine, I will definitely win her over with whatever means I have.
I can't remember how many times I have declared my love to her. Although I know she will try to divert but I still bear a small ray of hope, hoping that she will agree to be my girlfriend. Once, during a phone conversation, I didn't hear any reply from her over the phone. So I asked, "What are you doing? How come you didn't reply?" She said, "I'm nodding my head". "What!?" I couldn't believe my ears. "I'm nodding my head" She replied loudly. I hung up the phone and took a taxi and rush to her place and press her doorbell. After she opened the door, I hugged her tightly. I had won a place in her heart.
"Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay" 